She haunts me
my every moment
She haunts me and doesn't even know it
In my dreams and when I wake up
when I cook
and when I eat
and when I leave some food in the plate just coz I'm too full, or simply coz I din't like it..?
That night she told me she hadn't had anything since yesterday noon
I doubt if she has had any food before that
I donno if she sleeps hungry even tonight
I feel so selfish, and so evil
when I wear different clothes everyday
and a bag and shoes to match
I see the city girls going anorexic
and I see her frail swaying body unable to stand
all that’s left of her is bones and skin
I feel guilty for all the little comforts I take for granted
She haunts me with her large big eyes
so deep and so wide as if they never close
She sleeps in a dark alley
An alley full of parked trucks
An alley where I'm afraid to go even in the daylight
While looking for her I asked the truck drivers around if they saw a girl around
They said yes, there is an old woman sleeping there
An old woman? Why can't I see if she's really old?
Doesn't she age?
I asked her what she wants...
such a vague question... there could have been many answers...money.. a ticket to her home town may be...
anything a poor lonely frail body on a footpath can think of
she asked for nothing but a gown.
a long night gown.
so she doesn't have to worry about the blouse going off the boney shoulder
or the torn petticoat
Is she mad?
May be not
Certainly not.
She knows what she needs and exactly what she needs.
just a handful of food and a night gown.
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